Monday, March 15, 2010

Thoughts escaping


Drifting away
It seems inevitable

You do not see me
You do not hear me
You do not know me

Yes you love me
You wished and hoped for more
This we cannot change
Cannot undo

I am selfish
I am hurting
I am trying

I want to be honest
I want to speak

I am silent
I am hiding
I am broken

There are so many facets to these feelings.
So many reason that cannot pass my lips.
So many things you do not understand.
It appears I am damaged and selfish but look deeper and you will see me,
See the reasons, the hurt, the confusion.

Random Thought #1
Crying in the shower it came to me. Another little piece of my heart torn. "The last baby YOU held was my baby, my daughter. That hurts and you have absolutely no idea what that feels like."

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