Tuesday, May 18, 2010

What do you want?

I want to move far away
I want a fresh start
I want to pick up the pieces of my life
I want to remember
I want to forget
I want to love
I want to smile
I want to do something meaningful
I want to be loved
I want to be someone
I want passion
I want to focus
I want to run
I want to hide
I want to tell my story
I want no one to know me or my story
I don't want to hurt
I want to know who I am
I want to know why

Today I've had a shit day.
Today I feel like I'm lost.
Spiraling backward into the abyss that is grief.
The black hole of nothingness.
I just want to move on and pick up the pieces of my life.
To forget this sadness.
To just be me. I don't know who I am though. I feel like a miserable awful ugly person.
I just want to be happy and love life again.

Without you that is so very hard...


  1. hi carly ....... ditto and big hugs honey, lots of love, anne xxx

  2. Thanks Anne, hugs very much appreciated!