Sunday, September 20, 2009

Silent thougths

As inspired by a fellow blogger A Garden for Butterflies I thought I'd let go of the many random thoughts that never pass my lips. They forever swirl around my mind until they are suppressed into the depths of my soul for a later date or transformed into some other negative feeling. This exercise is to be a regular occurrence. If only we could be socially acceptable despite screaming motherfucker at the world itself. I know I'd feel better by doing it. Wouldn't you?

Some random thoughts for today. Some sad, some crazy, some just me.

*Oh goddess she was beautiful* (looking at her not so tiny feet sculptures)
*What will I do with that placenta in my freezer? I should be planning something special*
*What happened to me? Said as I examined myself in the mirror. Dark circles under my eyes*
*I shouldn't be fearing the days to come. I should be planning
Yuna's very first birthday party*
*I never got to make my chocolate labour cake. Was that an omen of things to come? She would never have a birthday?*

What were your random thoughts you kept to yourself today?


  1. Hi Carly - I just came across your blog and started to read yours and Yuna's story. I am so sorry for the loss of your Angel.

    Your writing is so raw and beautiful. Thank you for sharing your journey with us.

  2. Ahhh, let it out Carly.

    I'm so sorry to hear about the death of your lovely Yuna Jane (such a pretty name!) and the loss of your fertility.

    You will plan something special for the placenta, there is no rush.

    The thought I kept to myself today: I don't know if I can trust ever again. This is not so random but I worry that if people knew I doubted them I would drive them away.