Today

Today you would have been 17 months old
Today I would have been overwhelmed with the love I have for you and your brothers
Today you would have squealed as you learnt how to share with your nearly 3 year old brother
Today you would have smiled and giggled
Today you would have made a mess
Today you would have worn me out
and then
Today you would have snuggled with me
Today I would have been content just to love you and hold you
But today I'm just remembering you
Hoping and wishing you feel me still
Hoping you hear my messages of love
Hoping you catch the tears I've cried for you today